Thoughts

Tonight is my last night here on the farm. Tomorrow I will get up uber early once more to feed the horses and dogs. I will make sure all is ready to be taken home. And after I finish my shift at work I'll come back, pack my car and clean the stalls once more (because no one wants to come home from vacation and clean stalls :) ). Then I will say goodbye-for-now to this wonderful haven with wonderful (save one) animals.
I've always known I want to live on a farm. I've always said I want a big farm house with horses, cows and goats (notice, no birds of any kind). This week has shown me how much I really do desire it. I love waking up to go 'play' with horses. My horses, however, will wake at 9 rather than 630. I would love to have my own trails in my own woods to walk through. I would love to have a pond to watch the sun set across (and maybe on the occasion, rise). All these are dreams for now. Dreams I hope one day do come true.
Until then, I will await patiently. At times it may not be patient, but in all patiently. I will gain patience through prayer and the peace reciprocated. My Maker knows my heart, my dreams, my passions. He knows what I need and in His time gives it. Just think, if it were all in my time, the sun wouldn't rise until 9AM. I am excited to see God's plan unfold.
Its funny, His plan is unfolding as I write this. Sometimes we just don't think so because life seems so blah; so uneventful. I pray that I am fulfilling His plan, though I don't know what it is, nor what I'm doing. I was talking to my college Roommate "J" the other day saying that I want to be somewhere where I make an impact in someone else's life, not just work in a coffee shop day to day. Her answer was "I'm sure you are making an impact on people's lives, don't discount where you are" (paraphrased). Its true though,
The forest is quite beautiful once you look past the trees.